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专辑:彩虹天堂
刘畊宏-彩虹天堂
词曲:刘畊宏编曲:林迈可

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我不知不觉
又徘徊在从前
秋风悄悄的呼唤
听来尽是孤单
落叶的期盼
片片左右为难
心走寂寞攀
跟著飘进黑暗

我不闻不问
也许好过一点
被遗憾关在房间
挣扎只是拖延
无望的空谈
一声声的轻叹
回忆扯不断
怎么摆脱纠缠

找不到方向
往彩虹天堂
有你说的爱
在用幸福触摸忧伤
两个人
相守直到白发苍苍
自由的飞翔在灿烂的星光
有你在我身旁

How touching this song is. Somehow, it does describe my feelings. Don’t ask me why but it just brought me back to somewhere which I do not wish to remember or even think about.

Oh well, so be it. Life still goes on.

Mr R: Take care. Don't know why I feel so sad and lonely today. Just keep thinking of you.

Winnilicious: What so sad? I thought you have your "gf" what. Think of me for what? Cos me reminds you of pooh bear?

Mr R: Haha. Never mind. Ya, if I can, I want to spend the night with pooh bear.

Winnilicious: Hmmmmm…. I can loan you the biggest pooh bear I have at home but you need to provide him with a pot of honey. You want?

Mr R: Ha…. But I want to hug YOU now!

Winnilicious: …………………… Please do not scare me, else I will have nightmare again tonight! You go hug your "gf". I do not wish to get slapped.

Mr R: I am single now. You will not get slapped. Hope to spend time with you. But never mind.

Winnilicious: Single? Oh, okay. I thought I heard about "her" 1 or 2 months back? Spend time with me? Can. For a drink or 2, I can still afford the time. But you have to book in advance & hor………………. 

Mr R: Come out now la.

Winnilicious: I am feeling damn exhausted. I have been sleeping barely 3 hours for the past 1 week. An issue in office is driving me nuts already. Sorry. Next time.

Mr R: Take care.

Winnilicious: Tomorrow, maybe. Good night.  

Mr R: I let you know tomorrow. Cos I may have to celebrate Mother's Day.

Winnilicious: Me too. …………………………. *dozed off* 

1 WORD, LAME.

SERIOUSLY, I AM TO EXHAUSTED TO REALLY ENTERTAIN YOU.

IF ITS IN THE PAST, YES, I WILL ENTERTAIN YOU FOR SURE.

OR EVEN "FLY" DOWN TO MEET YOU.

NOW?

I DOUBT I WILL.

COS I LOVE MYSELF MORE. 

關上門 結束一天的旅程 眼前出現的不是屋頂的燈
總是被妳的畫面 佔據我所有視線 一直到我深深入眠

翻開日記 上面第一頁是妳 坐在夕陽下說夢想的表情
看妳燦爛的側臉心底堅定地誓言 要守護妳到永遠

朋友總給我一堆理由 要我別再為妳難過
他們只是不懂我 太多 愛上妳的理由

其實我一直默默在妳的身後 每天深夜都會數著星星找妳的星座
擔心妳脆弱 怕妳受挫 忘了自己的痛
從很久以前到以後 都堅持愛妳沒錯
其實看著妳開心就能足夠 也許我還少了一點勇氣把愛說出口
只要妳回頭 妳會發現我 不只是妳的朋友
這些年我一直站在愛妳的路口

翻開日記 上面第一頁是妳 坐在夕陽下說愛我的表情
看妳逞強的笑臉 心底堅定地誓言 要守護妳到永遠

朋友總給我一堆理由 要我別再為妳難過
他們只是不懂我 太多 愛上妳的理由

其實我一直默默在妳的身後 每天深夜都會數著星星找妳的星座
擔心妳脆弱 怕妳受挫 忘了自己的痛
從很久以前到以後 都堅持愛妳沒錯

其實看著妳開心就能足夠 也許我還少了一點勇氣把愛說出口
只要妳回頭 妳會發現我 不只是妳的朋友
這些年我一直站在愛妳的路口

這些年我一直站在愛妳的路口

A song that I love very much from the first time I heard. The lyrics, I guess, represent my feelings. Once again, I saw you, merely online though. Managed to take out the courage to say “HI” but I ended up, retreat; went offline until you were gone. What a coward I was! Or should I even call myself a LOSER? Maybe yes…..

Anyway, in time to come, I hope you will be down my memory lane.

Somehow, this question popped up to me this morning after a short MSN with a friend. To be frank, I don't really know how to explain. Isn't love supposed to be unable to explain?

Before, I move on further. Take a look at my previous posting.

Love is……. 

Looking at the whole issue. He is just like him. Great guy. But sad to say, fate only allows us to meet & not be together. I brought me thinking about what happened last year, this posting dated 12 October 2007, showed how relieved I was. I may have lost a diamond but sad to say, he wasn't my that piece of previous stone. In fact, the few months, there was no feeling from me at all. I am sorry but nevertheless, I did give it a try. It just didn't turn out well. Therefore, what did I actually gain? Nothing in fact. But at least, I know that I am least miserable as compared to the other time. I wasn't happy. Not at all. Cos he wasn't what I want. Anyway, that was after much thoughts, I decided to follow my heart to a nobody's land. I may not gain anything physically but at least, I am happier, to a certain extent. With hidden love, I learnt to be contented. There goes the thought of the day in February 2008. 

The saddest thing to say throughout the whole episode was "I had been single for a year, in exact." You know what I mean if you read my blog.

Love is:

A deep, tender, ineffable feeling of affection and solicitude toward a person, such as that arising from kinship, recognition of attractive qualities, or a sense of underlying oneness.

A feeling of intense desire and attraction toward a person with whom one is disposed to make a pair; the emotion of sex and romance.

Sexual passion

Sexual intercourse

A love affair

An intense emotional attachment, as for an appreciated pet or treasured object.

Ultimately, it's back to: Follow your heart or mind? I choose to follow my heart (not totally of cos) cos I know that I will be happier. You? 

Somehow, I started to miss you.  I even dreamt of you last night. *Sigh*

When will you be back? Next week. I am counting down.

Doubt mum-in-law   be coming down with you this time. I kinda miss her now. 

Looking forward to be here, . A place for teenagers, you said. But the fashion there, I was told, was good. So for sure, I am heading there! I am waiting to go for this too. I so wanna the whole shop.

Anyway, for now, I just hope to see you. 7 more days to go and you will be back. Wonder how is your schedule like? Can we accommodate at least a back-to-your-home-town trip? Oh well, to be confirmed after the Chinese New Year? We both are simply just so busy! 

I MISS YOU!