Am I really that FAT?
NO! - If I don't look at the mirror. -_-"
YES! – Everyone commented. *sigh*
"Are you on a secret pregnancy?"
"OMG! Why you become so FAT?"
"You weren't like this 2 years back."
etc…….
And I still remembered all these till the day I die
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Incident 1:
Ex BF, K brought me home for a meet-the-parents session. K's mum asked him "Why your gf so big-sized one? She looks like xxx (a FAT cousin of his)." Well, this question was raised IN FRONT OF ME! Shortly after, we broke off. OBVIOUSLY! *roll eyes* Who can take such comments? Especially, it came from an elderly. Few months back, I met him at Boat Quay and GUESS WHAT? I IMMEDIATELY flipped my hair to cover my face and had my face "glue" to the ground. At that very moment, I felt so much like the ghost in the movie, The Ring.
Incident 2:
Last September, I met this guy, E, who was a distant friend of mine online. He was back from Brisbane for a holiday and he asked me out for lunch. Out of courtesy, I met him for a quick lunch at Bugis Junction. Basically, the lunch lasted for less than 1.5 hours cos I wasn't really keen in him after seeing him in real person. BUT GUESS WHAT this meanie E did to me? He literally told every of our common friends, "You know how FAT this Winnie is?" That was hurting, especially I heard it from common friends. I was so upset that I took half day off work, went for some drinks and eventually, got myself drunk and sobbing badly in a pub. Since then, we ceased to contact. He is now off my Facebook, Friendster (if it still exist) and MSN. I even changed my mobile number, partly because of him!
The worst had yet to come!
God is so 'kind' to me! I met another of my ex BF, W at Jurong Point yesterday. It was a head-on meeting. There was NO way for me to avoid him unless I was suffering from amnesia (At the very point of time, I WISHED I was suffering from amnesia). I had to really forced myself to smile at him and well, as expected, he gave me the 'how-come-you-look-so-FAT' look!?!??!” And NO, I am NOT exaggerating at all!
*cry*
Who loves to be called FAT?
Who loves to be called Missy Piggy?
NOT ME!
Somehow, I chanced upon the Cenosis Glass House Challenge 2009. DIE DIE, BY HOOK OR CROOK, I want to take part!
I had submitted my application and I WAS SELECTED AS ONE OF THE PARTICIPANTS THIS YEAR! Having known that I am a Nuffnang Blogger, they decided to use Nuffnang's media to bring out the viral impact of blogging.
For now, I am not asking for much.
I just want to look like this again. (as above picture).
I just want the "chio chio" me back.
July 16th, 2009 at 06:42
Hello! Your name is featured on xiaxue’s blog. I’m a very nosey person by nature, so I thought I’d pop by. I’m quite surprised to find this entry, especially how people crude can be. Obviously being ‘fat’ is a sensitive issue. But I think you’ll need to stand up for yourself or you’ll get stepped on all over. As I read through this entry, I have a few comebacks I would LOVE to say to them if I were you. If they could dish out their harsh comments, surely they could take some. Being full figured isn’t a crime. As long as you’re comfortable with it and there is not health issue involved, why would you wanna be like the stick figure models? They look even more sickly! Yuck.
Anyways, I think you have your mind set about losing a few kilos, whatever makes you happy, go for it!! I’m going to bookmark your bloge so keep us posted about your slimming treatment. Good luck!
July 16th, 2009 at 10:57
you’re not fat…. why are those people so mean calling you fat… =(
ignore them bahh (: *hugs*
July 16th, 2009 at 11:40
dont worry:)
i’ve gone thru such crap too.
you will get ur chio chio you back:)
July 16th, 2009 at 13:03
Dropped by from Xiaxue’s blog
Why did you gain weight? :/
Vicissitudes of Life
July 16th, 2009 at 13:59
melo – I wasn’t fat but now I am. =_(
July 16th, 2009 at 14:00
Col – No worries. =D I am aware that I am featured in her blog. =P Thanks for your encourgement. By the way, I am reminded FAT every single day esp weekdays. =_(
July 16th, 2009 at 14:00
yannx – Thank you for your support.
July 16th, 2009 at 14:02
Shu Fen – *sigh* Food, Beer and more food. @_@ And obviously, I had forgotten my age. -_-”
July 16th, 2009 at 14:15
Got here from XX’s blog too. DAMN THOSE JERKS!!! They’ll get karma! Big people are beautiful! It’s how you feel about yourself! I was stuck in my perfect bod past too, but now I’ve come to accept that I took my figure for granted and am too lazy to do maintenance. I even convinced myself getting bigger is a natural process and learn how to cover up the flaws. In fact people occasionally think I lost weight! haha I’m sure you know how to flaunt the best parts too
Just love the way you look and people might start feeling they are too bloody anorexic instead! Will definitely look out for your Glass House experiment!!! You go girl! =D
July 16th, 2009 at 14:18
We shall all ROOT for Winnilicious! 加油!!! You can do it!!! ;p
July 16th, 2009 at 14:23
Saleisha – Thank you for your support. =D
Tamy – You ytd already laughed at me on the cab lor. -_-”
July 16th, 2009 at 14:26
I was trying to encourage u lor…. duh -_-”
You also know I am your “头号fan” wat…. ;p
July 16th, 2009 at 15:16
Tamy – Ya, encourage. So “kind” of you lor. @_@
July 16th, 2009 at 17:14
Wah.. I wan see your current pic… u can’t be rounder than me since yr that pic is so chio
July 16th, 2009 at 17:30
Ling – You will be impressed with me for putting on so many KGs in 2 years. @_@
July 16th, 2009 at 19:11
I get called fat a lot too ): Sigh. But I’m still average weight! Don’t know why people love calling others fat, really hurts. A lot. ):
July 16th, 2009 at 19:59
Justina – I don’t deny that the weight I put on was way too much already. But being reminded FAT each and every single day, *sigh* I am so immuned now.
July 16th, 2009 at 20:03
Hey winni~ im sure you are like not THAT fat as you think right?
maybe more of chubby? Do you mind posting your current pic? so we can see the difference of the slimming sessions.
July 16th, 2009 at 20:20
sha – No, now very big. I was also shocked when I was on the weighing machine few days back. http://i243.photobucket.com/albums/ff179/Winnilicious80/IMG_9408_RAW_1024-1.jpg The pic was taken less than 1 month ago at HK. & do come down and give me your support. I am really nervous about the press conference.
July 16th, 2009 at 22:18
hehs ~ ignore what those imbeciles said bahh (:
just be confident with your body, with how u look like,
annnnnnd ~~
all the best in ur Cenosis slimming thingyy.. haha ;D
July 16th, 2009 at 22:40
Hi Peeps, do support Winnilicious!!!! cheers!!! ;p
July 17th, 2009 at 00:31
JIAYOU! u can do it =)
make those stupid guys STFU when they see a stunning you again.
but remember u are already stunning on the inside.
JIAYOU GIRL!
July 17th, 2009 at 01:27
Hey Girl, dropped by from XX’s blog.. I really really sincerely know how it feels..
I used to be a part-time model 2 years backs.. weighing around 56-58kgs…standing at 178cm…
But due to loads of stress from various issues in life.. I shot straight to 80kg in 2 years…
I’m really trying my hearts out to get back what I lost..
I really hope you’ll succeed.. Your success can and will likely bring confidence to many of the girls like us.
The process may be tough but stand strong girl.. I’m voting for you!
All the best!
Christel
July 17th, 2009 at 02:18
wow you are fat
July 17th, 2009 at 03:14
How did u managed to get so much weight within 2 yrs? u gorged urself w food or that u have medical condition that causes the weight gain? the 2 yrs ago pic and recent pic is rly hugh difference.
July 17th, 2009 at 09:12
Hi there! Just wanted to wish you good luck. Curious, how did u gain so much weight in 2yrs’ time?
July 17th, 2009 at 09:48
melo – Thanks for your support. Well, to be frank, I no longer KEEP LOOKING at the mirror anymore, except when I need to wear contact lens, do mask, make up etc. O.o
Tamy – Ya. Your “taxi joke” and what you told me about EL said REALLY MOTIVATE me LOTS. $%&^$&^#$
vee – Really thank you. My 1st thing to do, “Email E my new pic?” Wahahahaha….
Christel – Yes, I was your weight 2 years back but shorter. But now, almost reaching 80kg already. Plus age is catching up, a married guy friend of mine keeps reminding me of health, which I am really very scared.
sha – See I told you. I am not exaggerating about my current weight at all! =_(
Cindy & Ailo – Excessive food and beer intake. Plus lack of exercise. & obviously, work is not as stress as before (my boss better don’t see this. =X) And thanks for your supports. =D
July 17th, 2009 at 10:25
Ok winnie… i will wave to u hahhaa
Jiayou.. if it work then maybe i also sign up haha
July 17th, 2009 at 11:55
OMG! Winnie… Is that really you? @_@
July 17th, 2009 at 12:04
Lingblogblog – Thank you ah. Die die must get back in shape so as to get rid of EVIL comments, especially from people I know!
July 17th, 2009 at 12:09
Princessa – Obviously its me lor. How long have you not met me? Hee…. =X
July 17th, 2009 at 18:46
hi dear, yeah saw your pic, you really did put on some weight. but the comment which said you are fat wasnt by me. some idiot used my nick. im sure the mail is diff.
It doesnt matter that you are bigger sized now since you can try out the treatments! uber cool. im sure you can get back that chio you lah. dont worry! jia you =)
July 17th, 2009 at 20:25
i just drop by from xiaxue’s too. you seem like a very nice & friendly girl.
i have gained weight as well. especially after I got married, as I changed my diet from asian to Arabic as hubby is Arab. Eat lamb and Arabic rice everyday! And BIG amounts of it!(that’s how they eat) The lebanese bread and lots of cheese also does not do any help.
Now I try to slowly watch my weight. I try to drink green tea everytime I finish eating. I try to add greens in my food. I cut on the Arabic dish. I eat mostly asian now. And fresh home-cooked food. I also try to force hubby to eat more asian, haha! Somehow he likes the idea because he wants to lose weight too.
I know how people can become fat in a very quick time. It’s called “yo-yo” diet. We asians tend to limit eating in the name of being thin. Like it’s normal for our girls who avoid rice altogether so that they will not be “fat”. And the usual avoiding milk, meat, chocolate, etc etc.
But that will fireback to you because once you are in a stressful mode, you will start to eat what you did not eat previously, for example, rice or chocolates. And once you start eating them, you become addicted and then you overdose.
So I guess the best is to eat moderately. If you feel like eating KFC, go ahead, but don;t make it everyday. Make it once a week or once a month, Same with chocolates, rice, etc. Don’t cut it out altogether because if you happen to touch it one day, you will tend to overdo it.
That said, good luck Winnie. I’m rooting for you!
p/s: When you finally get back your dream figure, please ignore those exes of yours! Go for chiao gentlemen guys ok! because you totally deserve the best! I mean, look at xiaxue, she ditched the losers and go for the best guy of them all!
July 17th, 2009 at 22:35
Hey!! I hope you succeed in losing those weight! Just PERSEVERE. And you can do it!
July 17th, 2009 at 23:47
“Real” sha – Some weight? I think it’s lots. =X Anyway, thanks for your support.
gongjoo – Thanks for your advice. It seriously helps. Looks like I have to go back to my green tea – I have been lazy. =X And I think I am one of those who went on Yo-Yo diet. =(
kay – Thank you for your support. I will do my best. =D
July 18th, 2009 at 00:02
HALO WINNIE!
u been to HK wax figure house?! VERY NICE RITE!
hahas.. u dun look fat.. tis call HEALTHY!
healthy den look more lk tai tai mah..
so must smile..
btw.. tt time, rmb ur idea of the big big crystals? many of my customers reali love dem alot!
July 18th, 2009 at 00:21
jia you winnie !!
July 18th, 2009 at 00:25
i am damn angry when i realized how those jerks treated you !!!!! tell them to ‘f’ spider !
dun put too much pressure… just stay healthy and love yourself winnie ! I back you up !
July 18th, 2009 at 00:34
Nikki – Long time no hear from you! I will do my nails again after these 3 months. & yes, I went to the wax museum, NICE. My bf is there. =P LOLx… Stock up your big crystals. They are nice. So remember to drop by Suntec to support me hor.
Simon “DI DI” – Xie xie hor… Since you visit my blog, I call you “DI DI” for now. IN FB, different. =P
July 18th, 2009 at 01:05
ya. ive instock alot more designs, those cakes n biscuits 4D design for bdae gals. and flowers for bridal and prom queens, big crystals wif various of colors. hahas.. !
July 18th, 2009 at 01:07
Nikki – ONZ. November do for me. Will let you know when. U must come down and support me wor.
July 18th, 2009 at 01:10
Jia you. I also used to be slim, but now I have tummy bulge and double chin. Hope you succeed in your weight loss, like I want to as well.
July 18th, 2009 at 01:27
Lynn – I used to be slim too. =/ Thank you for your support! I will work harder!
July 18th, 2009 at 02:22
hi babe ! firstly, it’s good you have in mind an image of yourself ! you should always be thinking of yourself in THAT image okay . no matter how many kilos you put on (serious!)
i look healthy but all my friends say i’m ‘forever skinny’, but i really have muscle tone and flesh, just LOOK skinny. i’ve been trying to gain weight properly, but it won’t work because i dance just about everyday and my meals are irregular .
you know, you are what you eat. this is 100% true. if you want it badly, put your heart into eating (FULL)meals of totally healthy food (no taste, no choice… k?)
and really… i have to be blunt and honest, but even as a dancer i’ve seen many who aren’t near my size at all (really…), or don’t have abs… it’s so much misconception!
so honey you’re alright the way you are.
BUT.
i have to wag a finger and say you must be quite lazy! cause exercise and food in moderation is the key. no exercise = don’t talk about losing weight. you’ve got work really hard for it. be harsh to yourself in terms of discipline, BUT not self-esteem.
love and lotsa luck babe.
July 18th, 2009 at 13:54
okies. see ya!
July 18th, 2009 at 14:23
HI all ladies!
I am the business development rep from Cenosis. I am very happy to see so many encouraging notes from all ladies for Winnie.
As you girls may be aware, that Cenosis is having our Glass House at Suntec City Atrium Galleria, and Winnie will be here for the entire month. Besides Winnie, we have 2 other contestants who are here. I have come to realize that a lot of plus size ladies have a lot of stories about one or more incidents that left a dent in their self confidence.
Thing is, besides looking good, being healthy is also very very important. With technology today, you can shape up or slim down. We encourage all girls to come down to Suntec today, and we are offering free health check up for all ladies coming down. Come, support Winnie and talk to our consultants today!
July 18th, 2009 at 15:59
zelia – Thanks for your advice. Sad to say, I cannot exercise. I sprained my ankle 1.5 months ago and *sigh*, it’s not healing yet. =_( So I am relying on Cenosis and obviously, my diet (No more BEER and indulge in food).
Nikki – I am here. COME DOWN!
July 19th, 2009 at 00:16
Hey winnie, I must tell you that you must persevere & I believe that Cenosis will get you back in shape..even better !
If I get older and cannot lose down the weight I might consider going for slimming centres, lipo. But for sure I will exercise. & I believe that mind > body.
YOU KNOW YOU CAN DO IT !<3
July 19th, 2009 at 02:03
Sharon – Thank you for your support.. After I slimmed down, I will exercise. =X
July 20th, 2009 at 23:17
堅持到底
July 21st, 2009 at 11:16
funnyz – Xie xie.. I really need all your supports as I am not really that determine in my mind.
July 21st, 2009 at 23:29
Everyday after work, I will walk past the glasshouse. I’ll give you moral support.
July 22nd, 2009 at 10:03
funnyz – Thank you so much….
July 22nd, 2009 at 17:08
hey dear . its alright , i believe you’d slim down ! how long was the last picture taken ? you looked really slim then ;]
July 22nd, 2009 at 22:41
Eileen – Hi. Thanks for dropping by. That picture was taken 2 years back. 2007 June I think. =(
July 25th, 2009 at 14:10
Hi brave gal,
chanced upon ur blog thru Xiaxue… I’m sure with the technology today, alot of gals will / have succeeded in sliming down.. U can do it and u will make it!
Regular exercise DOES helps and u should remind yourself of it regularly after u succeeded in sliming down. F off those exes of yours and one day, they will get their karma…
Here I wish u all the best and be determined! Preseverance goes a long way…
Cheers!
July 25th, 2009 at 21:13
Wa – Thank you so much!