I had a weird dream last night. Happy or sad? I seriously cannot define.
We met up again (in a group, of cos) due to a common friend who came back from the States. (In real life, we do not have common good friends).
What surprised me was we left without footing the bills & leaving the rest of the gang in the restaurant. To? I don't know.
Oh well, dreams are always dreams. They are always distorted, isn't it?
The next scene was the next day. I met up with this friend from States. She reminded me that we had not settled the bill for last night. It came up to be like $52. Then, I realised that I do not have his number. I wasn't able to contact him. BUT, you don't expect me to foot his bill as well too right?
What to do? Cracked my brain & went thru another channel. Contact his friend, K then.
Ending? Luckily, the dream was burst by myself. I woke up for no reason.
Still, the dream caused me to have a heavy heart. I can't describe the feelings in word. But just feel that the heart is rather heavy. HAIZ……. It is already 2 moths plus after the whole issue & I was with him for 2 months only.
So…. when the hell am I going to let it go mentally, physically? Consciously & subconsciously?
Anyway, heard this song from Linda's blog which I find it meaningful.
把这首歌送给你, “想念你的歌”。 好好的过你的生活吧。常常只有一个念头, I MISS YOU. 我的爱情从来没有死掉过。
Heard it from 2 blogs I always read, one is JKD & Jeslyn (Zet's ex), I may not understand since it is in Korean but the tune of this song is very nice.
If there's anything I've learnt during my time on this planet, is that, sex does not equal to love. Yet infidelity which often involves sex has always been accepted as 'evidence' of a 'betrayal of love' while all the time it involves no love where the betrayal is concerned – but lust on the other hand, is in abundance.
Relationships such as those that began as affairs, frequently due to the nature of how they began, will always have some seeds of distrust. The new spouse will always wonder if there is another affair going on, if their partner really loves them, or do they love them just for what they can get out of them. Many a times, once the participants of an affair legalize their 'affair' (once that couple marries), they find that their relationship, along with their sex life, changes a lot from the time of the affair. A lot of the excitement is suddenly gone. This can set the stage for the disloyal spouse from relationship number one to start looking again, and they are justified once again, because spouse number two is not delivering the goods that they promised.
"Nothing will come of nothing. " – William Shakespeare
Hmmmm… Very meaningful.. That is why I extracted from her blog with her permission. She does not want me to publicise her blog address. Anyway, gonna hit the sack soon. I am suffering from bad gastritics…. ARGH……………………